Winter Lilies

I haven’t been doing any blogging lately. Haven’t been in the mood really…busy thinking of other things, doing other things.

I spent a year doing a medical transcriptioning college for seemingly no reason. All the companies want experience, and I don’t have it. I’m tired and frustrated by it. On the other hand I’m thinking about going back to college again, for a massage therapy course. It’s not that I have any real interest in massage therapy, but at least there is a huge job market for them. Maybe I could actually get a decent job. I don’t want a job, I just want to be able to stay home with my girls, but that doesn’t pay the bills.

I’m on the verge of losing my house, and electricity and everything because I don’t have the money to pay the bills. My paid blogging helps some, as does the donations from Gleaning The Harvest, but it’s not enough. I can’t let my girls be homeless, and so the job search continues, and I continue to explore options.

Well, there’s my troubles in a nutshell.

Time seems to have slipped away from me lately. Didn’t realize it had been so long since I had blogged here.

Things aren’t much better…still no job, still a constant struggle with the behavior of the girls, but we are getting by. All we can do is keep foraging ahead, and praying for a time when times get better. We are together, and that’s the most important thing!!

Still visiting with family a lot. *S*..Having them in my life, to lean on is a comfort, one I had missed dearly!! It helps keep some of the lonliness away, as well as someone to turn to when I need to vent, or need advice.

I’ve met someone…Well, sort of met…*LOL* We met online, and have talked a lot. We are just friends, but there is that possibility for a true relationship. I find myself very comfortable with him. *S* We talk about everything…It’s been really nice!

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and do a quick update, such as it was.

I haven’t really been in the mood to blog lately. Too much has been on my mind lately. Not all of it has been bad I assure you. I have been visiting with my Mom and brothers and sisters a lot more recently. Especially Steven….He’s been so good to me, and nice to me…*S*

Alot of my problems have been of the financial kind. No matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to get a job, not working at home, not working out of the home. It’s been a hard struggle, and getting harder by the day as I keep seeing what money I have disappear, with no way in sight to replace it. I don’t want to go back to work outside the home, that’s not what I want at all!!!!! But at this point, I have to take what I can get, because I won’t let my kids be homeless.

I haven’t been in a very kind or good mood lately. I’ve been having to sort out some problems with the girls, and I’m not a patient person to start with, so I’ve been rather short-tempered and crabby lately. It’s truly not just the girls…the problems we’re having are just normal things, I’ve had a lot of other things on my mind as well.

Anyway, I feel like I have made absolutely no sense writing this, so I’m going to sign off.